Tattoo

Hi, I want to get a tattoo that really means something but it doesn't reveal to others what it really means, I want it to have a mystery so only so I know. When i was younger my mum made me get an abortion and I've never really got over it so I need help deciding what to get :-S x

How about the flower or bird of the month she would have been born?

lotus flower beging of life flower and in the center point of lite stemming from the flower place tha kanji tattoo for loyal and love with a nice smoke accent swirling from the center of the flower.